I Became the Fiancé of a Dragon in Romance Fantasy

Chapter 89: Previous life (4)

[Physis POV]

[ Its okay. Sob... Im fine. So please, Physis, wake up... Please... ]

The warm voice of Adilun, different from the cold one I had just heard, echoed in my mind.

In an instant, the encroaching darkness caused by the tsunami consuming me started to ebb, and I began to revert to my original state.

[ Damn it. Someone I hardly understand is now getting in the way...! ]

What followed was the evil voice of the corrupted Adilun. As if reflecting her enraged emotions, the black tsunami began to surge forward, trying to swallow my whole body again.

However, thanks to the brief moment of clarity given by Adilun, who observed from outside, I was able to regain my sanity.

I realized If I were consumed here, I would undoubtedly lose myself, and if that happened, the current Adilun would never be happy.

Pushing against the tide, I now ignored the faces of those trapped inside, a stark contrast to my previous state of vulnerability.

The only things that had changed were my willpower and determination, and just that alone was enough to prevent that tsunami from harming me.

[ ...Ugh ]

The corrupted Adilun glared at me with a seething expression. Still, I continued to approach her.

[ Dont come near me. ]

The tsunami eventually became a barrier, beginning to surround her. But even from within that barrier, her voice resonated.

[ Why are you able to resist? Why arent your sins tearing you apart? Why! ]

Her voice was filled with anger and sorrow.

Because I have someone waiting for me.

[ Soon, even that Adilun will see your true colors, realizing the monster you truly are! ]

That Adilun... she accepted me, even during the times I was a despicable person.

[ ... ]

The corrupted Adilun was at a loss for words. As if she tried to say something but couldnt.

[ Dont be ridiculous. She doesnt truly know you. Shell surely regret it, just like me, for being involved with someone like you. ]

She must have already regretted it enough. She might have known, been afraid, wasnt sure when I might change.

[ Then how did you win her over? ]

At her question, I simply smiled.

I myself didnt know the answer to that question. Why she forgave me? Why she accepted me? I could only think that perhaps she came to trust me by observing my actions.

I dont really know either. I just... liked her. All I did was care for her. I acted for her as much as I liked her. and maybe my actions convinced her.

[ So, why... why didnt you do that for me? ]

Her voice was laced with sobs. She was resenting me at that moment. After all, I was the one who ruined her life. In a way, it was natural.

At that moment, I realized what I needed to do. I moved my feet once more, walking through the blackened space, heading toward the barrier surrounding her.

Thorns gradually formed from the barrier, attempting to prevent my approach.

I didnt resist. I let the thorns pierce my body with ease.

As they did, my skin shifted in hue, but my determination held. There were words I needed to convey.

[I hate you. I despise everything about you...]

As those words filled the air, my darkened body began to change. My bones thickened, and I matured slightly in appearance.

Even without a mirror, I recognized this change: I had become the version of myself from the future, the one who perished alongside the corrupted Adilun.

In the same appearance that the corrupted Adilun had shown me earlier, I walked toward her. I had accepted my sins, but I wasnt consumed by them.

Because there was someone supporting me. Someone who gave me hope and was waiting for my return.

Soon, I stood before the barrier. The corrupted Adilun didnt launch any more attacks at me. She simply crouched within the barrier.

Through eyes that pierce to the essence, I saw the cowering, sorrowful figure of Adilun.

I clenched my fist. An overwhelming sensation rushed through me, reminiscent of my peak power.

My power was concentrated. Perhaps the corrupted Adilun felt it too, for she exclaimed in shock.

[What are you doing!?]

She, who had met her end with me that day, must know my strength. As a result, she began to fortify her barrier even more. The black barrier intensified, solidifying until it resembled a cocoon.

But I didnt care and launched a powerful blow at the cocoon.

-Quaang!

A loud noise rang out, but the cocoon didnt disintegrate. I continued to strike it. I needed to break this cocoon to face her and talk.

[Stop it!]

Her frantic shout echoed, but I didnt stop.

The corrupted Adilun looked at me with a truly terrified expression. And why wouldnt she? After all, I was the one who had killed her. But even knowing that, I didnt stop hitting the cocoon.

This cocoon was formed from negative emotions, mirroring the darkness that consumed me and her.

So, I had to break it.

Gradually, cracks began to form. She no longer had the strength to resist, letting her hands fall.

[ I dont know what youre trying to do... but do as you wish. ]

With her words, one final strike hit that cocoon, causing it to collapse and revealing her form once more.

And at that moment, I was finally able to face her again.

Adilun.

[ I dont want to hear anything from you. So just go away. ]

With resentment, anger, hatred, and sorrow in her eyes, she gestured toward me.

However...

[ Why? Why didnt you?... ]

I didnt go away. The reason was simple.

She had told me that this realm was the very core of my soul. In the grand scheme, she wasnt its masterI was. Unless I willed it, I wouldnt depart.

With deliberate steps, I drew closer to her.

* * *

[Corrupted Adiluns POV]

Physis made his way towards me.

Why? Why cant I expel him from this space?

While thinking about that, I realized the reason on my own.

I had disclosed to him that this space mirrored his innermost self.

Damn it.

Blinded by my anger upon seeing him, I carelessly revealed information that I shouldve kept hidden. And that would likely mean my demise.

Since I was leeching off his evil part, the moment he realized this space was his own heart, I became powerless.

Defeated, I gave up and let go of my hand.

Then, his hand extended toward me. I closed my eyes tightly. Even if I pretended to be strong, he was someone who had once killed me. Hed undoubtedly hurt me once more.

I hate it. Im scared. I hate him.

A turmoil of emotions gave birth to deep-seated resentment within me.

Why hadnt he treated me like the present Adilun? The answer was clear. His true nature was evil.

The only reason he could shower the current Adilun with kindness was that, in the future, he learned empathy. I was well aware.

Yet, while my mind accepted it, my heart resisted. If only he had been compassionate from the start, I wouldnt have endured such anguish.

I wouldnt have witnessed my parents being slaughtered by monsters, and wouldnt have been driven to commit such heinous acts myself.

I wouldnt have had to face the darkest aspects of humanity.

Ultimately, knowing that Id dissolve in this overwhelming bitterness, I wouldve preferred meeting my end sooner.

Why did the gods decide to send Physis and me back in time? Just why?

As my vision dimmed, an enigmatic child appeared. This child, who had shared my past tale with Physis, was certainly a being far beyond my comprehension.

Yes, God.

Why would such an entity inflict this torment upon me? Was it because of the countless lives Id taken? Because I had wrought destruction not just on my own world but on other realms as well?

Lost in a storm of thoughts, I finally felt his touch. Yet, contrary to my expectations, there was no pain.

Instead, I found myself enveloped in a comforting embrace.

Lifting my gaze, I met his eyes. The future him, looking at me with remorse.

With his black hair and eyes, he was the spitting image of the Physis I once knew. Yet the ravages of time had left their mark. He bore the exact look he had when he ended my life.

Why didnt he kill me now? Why did he embrace me?

[...Why?]

Taken aback, I found my voice.

Im sorry.

Sorry? Why now?

Apologies, after all is said and done, seemed futile. Why utter them now? Was he mocking me till the very end?

However, the genuine remorse reflected in his gaze gave me pause.

Dont forgive me. Continue to resent and hate me. I have no intention of pathetically defending my wretched self. Ive clearly committed unforgivable sins against you.

He said, urging me not to forgive himwords he had once said to todays Adilun.

Anger surged within me.

[Why... Why are you saying this now... When everythings over! Everythings ended, and Ive nothing left, why!]

The family I held dear, the lands I cherished, and the last sliver of hope that allowed me to maintain my identityeverything had disintegrated into nothingness. Why was he choosing to tell me this now?

Going back in time doesnt erase my sins. But... there are still remnants. The ones you loved.

I lifted my head. No. What I cherished has long been scattered in the shards of a time now forgotten. How could I ever forget? The way they perished, the way they disappeared.

[No, those arent what I loved...]

No. Those are exactly what you loved. The scenery of Rodenov you adored, the people you loved... Theyre all still here. Youve seen them, alive and smiling again.

Emotion welled up inside me. No one remembered; no one was aware of the desolate future I had endured.

Yet, as much as I wanted to deny it, his words held truth. Through the lens of his rejuvenated sight, I recognized that all I held dear still thrived here.

Before all those tragedies unfolded. No, even after they occurred, a world brimming with more beautiful stories than the time I lived in.

The utopia I had longed for. Yet, I had no place in it.

[Theres no place for me there. The current Adilun is the one who belongs. After losing everything to you, its time for me to disappear.]

You wont disappear.

He held me tightly in his arms, just as he had embraced the current Adilun.

[Why are you suddenly acting like this toward me? You should just get rid of me.]

Because you are also Adilun. It was you who kindled the new hope within me, allowing me to relish the moments of joy with the current Adilun.

His words silenced me. The moment of his transformation, his awakening to humanity.

He had been engrossed in my incomplete story, supporting my journey.

How ironic.

That was the only way I could perceive it. Everything about the situation was so ironic that I was left speechless.

Thats why you wont disappear. You will always remain within me, if you wish. Of course... Ill have to eliminate all those dangerous, negative aspects.

He was willing to accept me. He seemed to contemplate making space for me in a corner of his heart so my existence wouldnt vanish.

But I didnt want to accept his offer.

[No, I wont accept it. I will never intend to forgive you.]

Dont forgive me. Im prepared for that. The current Adilun, and even me from back then, wouldnt have forgiven either.

[Isnt it ironic? If you had humanity from the start, could I have been happy?]

Brushing aside his sentiments, I spoke my heart.

Perhaps you could have.

[Hahaha...]

How different he had become. This Physis, who had developed humanity, was a completely different person from the one I knew.

Indeed, he was an entirely different being.

So, even if he were to be held accountable for his sins, it felt almost pointless.

Living like this felt pointless. Wouldnt it be easier if I just disappeared?

As these thoughts consumed me, he intervened.

Dont lose hope. The beginning has yet to come. The Demon King has been vanquished, and the North no longer stands on the brink of destruction. The plagues rampage is halted. I... together, we thwarted it.

[.]

Suddenly he grabbed my hand.

I give you my word. I wont allow the future youve endured to manifest. Ill make certain you never find yourself on that path.

[Shouldnt you be saying that to the current Adilun?]

I told you, you are also Adilun.

[No. That child and I are different entities. Weve been through different events, at different times. Can you really say such beings are the same? So... this is right.]

I could feel my existence gradually fading.

It was meaningless. No matter how much we talk, in the end, we were parallel lines.

He was living in the present, but I was a person trapped in the future, unable to see the present.

So, this was right.

Yet, still.

His vow to prevent the current Adilun from facing a future like mine... made me happy. Because at least I could tell that the current him genuinely cared for her.

Yes, this was good enough.

Gradually, my vision blurred. At that moment, he had an expression of sudden realization and said to me,

Haa. So, thats how it was. Yes, Adilun. Rest easy. Anyway well meet again.

[What?]

With those words, I was enveloped in darkness.

--- End OF The Chapter ---

[TL:  Hey, everyone! Today, I've finally published the last chapter of 'Fianc of Dragon' on Patreon! 

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