CEO He : Please Don't Love Me

401  The Bittersweet Confession

The two men stood in front of each other silently. Both of their eyes were cold. Mo Roulan stared at both of them. She didn't know why both of them would look at each other like this every time they would meet. Neither did she have any interest in finding the answer to her question right now. She just wanted to free her arm from He Jian's grip and then go inside the company so Mo Roulan struggled. She struggled only a little in the beginning to try to indicate He Jian that she wanted him to leave her arm. However, the man didn't even look at her before tightening his grip in response. It didn't hurt Mo Roulan but she understood that he was not going to let her go. Her eyes went blank and she lowered her head silently. No one could guess what was going on inside her mind. On the other hand, Cheng Yang who was also looking at Mo Roulan was disappointed to see when he saw Mo Roulan lowering her head. He didn't like how He Jian was holding Mo Roulan's hand. However, when Mo Roulan was not showing any resistance then what could he say. His heart suddenly seemed to be surrounded by the coldness of his own thoughts. Cheng Yang swallowed. He wanted to say many things but suddenly he felt that it was better to leave right now. He was afraid that he would say something at this moment, that he would regret later on. He needed to talk to Mo Roulan alone. He needed to tell her about his feelings…about what he wanted to be between them…about how He Jian being around her bothered him very much. With all these thoughts, Cheng Yang had just turned around to leave when he heard He Jian's cold voice again.

"In the future, Young Master Cheng must maintain a proper distance from Lanlan. She is …"

He Jian paused and swallowed the word 'my girlfriend'. A moment later, he continued

"She is a girl. It is not good for her to…"

"I think that she can decide for herself what is good for her or not."

Cheng Yang said even before He Jian could complete his words. This time, he really looked at Mo Roulan waiting for her to agree with his words and he was relieved to see that even Mo Roulan's forehead had a frown as if indicating her displeasure. He Jian's face was cold when he heard Cheng Yang's reply. His eyes followed Cheng Yang's gaze and he found him looking at Mo Roulan and this only increased the suffocation he was already feeling inside his heart. He looked at Mo Roulan's deep frown and waited for her to say something. However, she never said anything. She didn't even look at him. As if she could sense his gaze, she silently lowered her head. He Jian didn't know whether he should feel happy or sad because of this. Mo Roulan didn't say anything. Was it because she agreed with him or was it because she didn't even want to talk to him?

"Roulan…"

He Jian came out of his trance when he heard Cheng Yang calling out Mo Roulan's name as if he also wanted her to say something.

Mo Roulan did raise her head and looked at him with a smile this time. He Jian's other hand that didn't hold Mo Roulan's hand clenched tightly forming a fist. However, his expression was less cold when he heard Mo Roulan's next words. "Cheng Yang, we will talk later. You should leave now otherwise you will get late for the college." Cheng Yang's eyes went blank at these words. He was surely hurt by Mo Roulan's words but when he looked at her. He could suddenly see that she was intentionally trying to send him away. There was something off about her today.

Cheng Yang could sense it but he didn't have any way of finding this out. Mo Roulan knew that her words might have hurt Cheng Yang but she didn't have any other choice. If she really let Cheng Yang stay here then she didn't know what He Jian would say next. She also needed to talk to him and then go inside the company as soon as possible at least before anyone would see her and He Jian together. She was relieved that they were standing a little far away from the front gate otherwise the whole company would have seen her with He Jian by now. Fortunately, Cheng Yang didn't say anything after that and left there silently. Mo Roulan looked at the leaving car with sad eyes. She decided to apologize to Cheng Yang later for her actions today. He was just being nice but she had to behave like this with him. Looking back at her hand, Mo Roulan this time struggled again and said calmly.

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He Jian had now turned completely to look at her. One of his hands was holding Mo Roulan's hand and the other was inside his pant pocket. He had wanted to tell her to stay away from Cheng Yang in the future. However, when he saw her lowered head and heard her calm voice, he couldn't really let out anything from his mouth. Whatever he did last night was really abrupt. He Jian sighed heavily as he stepped closer to Mo Roulan. However, as soon as he did that, Mo Roulan took a step back in response. He Jian froze and stood at his spot silently. His blue eyes silently stared at Mo Roulan's lowered head. Mo Roulan didn't hear anything for a long time and felt very confused. Her mind and heart were already a mess. She just wanted to leave from here right now. Being closer to him was only reminding her of the last night and hence making her mind messier.

She was not in the mood for any talk right now. Mo Roulan struggled again but this time the force she applied was greater than before. However, no matter how huge it was, she could never compare to He Jian's strength. "Leave me."

She didn't raise her head but her voice was a little firmer than before. "Lanlan…"

He Jian said as he tried to step forward but Mo Roulan again took a step back in response. "I said leave me."

She said as she tried to step more away from him but she couldn't do so because soon He Jian was holding her other hand also. "Lanlan…"

He Jian called out gently but Mo Roulan interrupted him again and said "Leave me….leave me …"

He Jian stopped and his eyes went a little wide. He could feel that Mo Roulan's voice was quivering. "Lanlan.."

This time he tried to look at her face. However, Mo Roulan continued to whisper. "Leave me please….please."

And soon her shoulders were shaking. He Jian was shocked as he had not expected such an intense reaction from her. He sighed helplessly as he hugged her in his arms and stroked her hair gently. She must be scared. He thought inside his heart. He should really have not done that. However, what was done was done and he couldn't change that now. He could only try to make her feel that whatever happened was wrong…that she should not feel scared of him. "Lanlan…"

He Jian whispered but he couldn't really find any words to say when he heard Mo Roulan's soft sniffles from his arms. In the end, only three words came out of his mouth. "I am sorry, Lanlan. I am very sorry."

It was at those words, Mo Roulan suddenly stopped sobbing in his arms. Her body was stiff. When she tried to step back, He Jian let her. He almost flinched when he saw her red and swollen eyes that were filled with new tears now. "Are you angry at me?"

He Jian asked so gently that Mo Roulan thought that it was her illusion. The He Jian she knew never talked to anyone like this. "I am sorry. I did wrong."

Mo Roulan's eyes were blank as she heard He Jian's words but her heart that had been a mess for a whole night was suddenly starting to calm down. Yes, He Jian was sorry. He knew that whatever happened was wrong. This was what she was waiting to hear. It was just a mistake. Maybe he was drunk. The thought had crossed her mind when she remembered that there really was wine on the dining table in He Mansion last night. Maybe He Jian was drunk and …and confused her for someone else. A part of her heart had felt bitter when she had thought this but she had conveniently ignored it and focused on the other part who had suddenly calmed down. At this moment, she was the same. Her heart that had been beating fast since last night had now finally calmed down. Yes, this was a mistake. She just needed to forget everything as if it never happened. He Jian had done so much for her. She would not make this issue that big. It was after all….just a kiss. Mo Roulan put a forced smile on her lips and was about to think of some right words she could say in the current situation. However, the smile froze on her lips when she felt He Jian cupping her cheeks with both of his hands and heard his next words. "I should have done it in a better way. I should have told you about my feelings first."

"But it is not late."

With that, He Jian smiled. The cherry blossoms that had just bloomed in the city suddenly started to fall down. Under the cherry blossoms, Mo Roulan heard the words she had always wanted to hear in her past life.

"Lanlan, I love you."